I got food poisoning twice from two different Subways. I also have a scorched ground policy with some sub shops. It was about being overwhelmed by everything. I ended up “making a scene” and “being dramatic”. There are too many people, too many choices, and nowhere to sit. My husband is asking me to make a decision on food. I had in my mind that we were going to eat with those friends but they are without us so we were on our own. I had a time when I was at a fair with my husband and 4 kids and we were supposed to meet up with friends. If everything continues I will likely have a meltdown. It’s really that I can’t think rationally while the trigger is present. To people around me I’m very irritated and moody. With overstimulation there is usually some sort of trigger that I can’t escape. I finally got there and he had decided to have someone else do the errand knowing that I wouldn’t want to leave the house, but got busy at work and forgot to tell me. I sat around for awhile dreading it because I didn’t want to leave the house. My husband travels for work and asked me to run by his friend’s business and grab a check to deposit it. I get horribly emotional and I may hyperventilate. Upsetting events can just go straight into a meltdown for me and sometimes I feel very guilty because (thanks mom) I feel like a bratty kid throwing a tantrum because I didn’t get my way. So for me a meltdown starts with either overstimulation or an upsetting event (like plans getting changed). You have just an overall feeling of being unwell. Panic attacks are often mistaken for a heart attack. At some point I think I might have developed fear of having new episodes, so some of these meltdowns were superseded by actual panick attacks. I always referred to these episodes as panick attacks, or anxiety attacks, or simply, "I totally lost it".īut since realizing I might be autistic, I now think they were mostly meltdowns. I would always dissociate to some degree (like I'm not in my own body). The feeling was so unbearable (sadness? rage?) that I would sometimes hit my head or throw stuff around. These episodes were very frightening, because I felt I lost control of myself. It was either caused by overstimulation (in parties, where I wanted to leave, but my then boyfriend wanted to stay, for example) or by an incident, where someone (usually my dad or a boyfriend) said or did something awful and I got angry about it. If you post or comment using another individual's art, content, or comment, credit must be given to the original creator.įor a long time, I have had these episodes where I would completely freak out and cry, sometimes yell and get into arguments.No crowd-funding, selling, self-promotion, advertising, market research, book/article research, product research, or marketing posts.Ĭredit to the original artist/creator is required.No donation requests, marketing, self-promotion, etc. Any posts or comments supporting these or other organizations/companies that harm autists will be removed.Īny research participant requests must be submitted to mods for approval. Autism Speaks is known to be detrimental to the autistic community.
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